This memorial website was created in the memory of our precious Baby boy, Brennan Daniel White who was born in Minnesota on March 15, 2005 and passed away on October 03, 2005, because of SIDS. He was 6 1/2 months old. We will remember him forever. Although his stay here was very brief he will remain in our hearts forever. We all love and miss You Brennan and we always will. I love you!!!
"Perhaps they are not stars in the sky, but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know they are happy."
To any of you who would like leave a message or memory for Brennan please make an entry in the Tributes and Condolences section... We love to read them, it helps us get throught the day. We love you all and thank you for all of the love and support that you have given me and Kyle and our families.
The Flower for March
DAFFODIL: Regard, rebirth, new beginnings, unrequited love, you're the only one, chivalry. Also the birthflower for March.
If tears could build a stairway
And memories a lane
I'd walk right up to Heaven
And bring you home today
No farewell words were spoken
No time to say good bye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why
My heart still aches of sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know
WHAT MAKES A MOTHER
I thought of you and closed my eyes, and prayed to God today. I asked, "What makes a mother?" and I know I heard him say,
"A mother has a baby".
This we know is true. But God, can you be a mother when your baby's not with you?
"Yes, you can", He replied, with confidence in His voice. "I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice. Some I send down for a lifetime and others for the day and some I send to fill your womb, but there's no need to stay."
"I just don't understand this God, I want my baby here."
He took a breath and cleared His throat and then I saw a tear.
"I wish I could show you what your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile, with other children and say....
'We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear, my Mommy loved me so much I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me. I learned my lessons very quickly, my mommy set me free.'
'I miss my mommy oh so much but I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep, on her pillow is where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek, and whisper in her ear, 'Mommy don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here.'
"So you see my dear sweet one, your children are ok. Your babies are here in my home, and this is where they'll stay. They'll wait for you with Me until your lesson is through. And on the day that you come home, they'll be at the gates for you. So now you know what makes a mother, it's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of, right from the very start. Though some of earth may not realize, until their time is done, remember all the love you have and know that you are a special mom."
IF TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME....
If tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me…as much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready in heaven far above,
And that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I’d always thought, I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday just even for a while,
I’d say good-bye and kiss you, and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized that this could never be,
For emptiness and memories would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly thing I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven’s gates I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled & at me from
His great golden throne,
He said, “This is eternity and all I’ve promised you..
Today your life on earth is past but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow but today will always last,
And since each day’s the same way there’s no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful, so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn’t do.
But you have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.
So won’t you come and take my hand and share my life with me? “
So when tomorrow starts without me, don’t think we’re far apart,
For every time you think of me, I’m right here, in your heart.
To Love the While He Lives
"I'll lend you for a little time a child of mine," He said.
"For you to love the while he lives and mourn when he is dead,”
"It may be six or seven years, or twenty-two or three,”
"But will you, till I call him back, take care of him for me?
“He'll bring his charms to gladden you, but should his stay be brief,”
"You'll have his lovely memories, as solace for your grief,”
"I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth return,”
"But there are lessons taught down there I want this child to learn."
"I've looked the wide world over in my search for teachers true,"
"And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes I have selected you.”
"Now will you give him all your love, nor think the labor vain,”
"Nor hate me when I come to call to take him back again?”
“I fancied that I heard them say: "Dear Lord, Thy will be done!”
"For all the joy Thy child shall bring, the risk of grief we'll run.”
We'll shelter him with tenderness; we'll love him while we may,”
“And for happiness we've known forever grateful stay.”
"But should the angels call for him much sooner than we'd planned,”
"We'll brave the bitter grief that comes and try to understand."